Everything I Need To Know, I Learned From Coached Natives
[info]thekellyfox
So I've been loosely following this show on the Travel Channel.  It's called "Meet The Natives USA".  Featured is a group of five men from a small village on the remote island of Tanna (elected by their fellow tribesmen as "ambassadors") who are flown to the United States and taken on an extensive tour through the country.  As anyone could guess, the culture shock is more than they could have ever imagined.

I think I'll take the typical "good news, then bad news" approach on this one, and begin with the plus sides of this show.

I find this show heartwarming, and admittedly a little amusing.  Watching the looks on these men's faces as they are introduced to the countless aspects of American living can be intriguing, and beckons the viewer to explore the idea of a life far different from our own; a life where none of our societal norms exist, from money to clothing style to what is important for survival to social relations and groupings.  I have to give it to the Travel Channel - they have made me think.  But they've also saddened me, looking at the many ways that these villagers are so much wiser.  This brings me, however, to the "bad news".

The bad news is: a lot of things on this show are coached.  Very obviously.  So obviously, in fact, it's just infuriating.  Many times throughout the show, you see the appointed spokesman of the villagers' group giving a formal message to each person they meet or stay with along their travels.  And an alarming percentage of these times, the message is brimming over with propaganda.  Sappy, pleading environmentally-friendly messages; messages about President Obama; messages about tolerance (by an overly liberal definition, that is: which comes to mean, "preferential treatment for special groups of people rather than true equal treatment for all human beings")...it's everywhere.  And you can tell, if you stop to just watch the body language of the villager as he speaks.  Eyes seem to shift, there is a look of "Am I doing this right?" and a sort of uneasiness and uncomfortable air around them.  Much in contrast to all the other messages, such as that of peace, or when they speak about their own ways of living.  Being villagers, after all, and not politicians...well, they suck at acting. Even when coached.

The thought also struck me: Who the hell is narrating this thing?  With the obvious propaganda interwoven into the show, I have to question the narrative.  The words of the natives themselves I will trust a little more readily...when it's not coached.

In a way, it is as if the viewer is meant to feel ashamed of their plush life in America, ashamed of their selfishness.  The viewer is expected to learn the message of being, in essence, just like these all-knowing villagers.  Shame on us for being rich, for waging war, for destroying the planet and trampling others!  Shame on us for being civilized!

Now let me say, there are lessons to be learned, indeed.  A no-nonsense approach to life is always good, such as these guys have.  When given the opportunity, for example, to "Look ten years younger" by a worker at a spa in Orange County, one villager gives a funny sort of look and says "No, I'd rather live longer instead."  When introduced to the great divide between the rich and the homeless in our country, the looks on their faces say it all: "Why? How could this happen?"  They show patience, and a sort of calm wisdom in the face of things so foreign and strange.

However... There are things to be discarded.  Here we are, being not so subtly shamed for our ways of living - and yet, why?  I agree, we could use some more sound, down-to-earth, no-nonsense wisdom in this country.  It is so easy to forget the truth as we watch these men dressed in our clothing, eating our foods, and participating in our everyday activities.  The truth, that is, that they live a kind of life we could never begin to survive in.  They are villagers, remember?  In a remote island, far removed from society.  If you know me, you know I am not a respecter of persons - I don't give a crap where you're from or what you look like or sound like, I judge based on character.  So of course, I respect the villagers intensely - especially considering they are going to basically have a blast in the US, and then get dumped back into their own lives in the jungles of beautiful, yet merciless Tanna.  However, why are we being beaten over the head with this?  Personally, I find it an outrage.

While mildly good for entertainment value (culture shock of this magnitude can be interesting, amusing and even tug at one's heart strings) - I must ask the question: Why the hell did they even create this show?  It's useless.  All it's good for, in truth, is to tout a bunch of political and moral lessons as if we are children to be indoctrinated.  And what's worse, how dare they uproot these villagers only to dump them right back where they started - all for the purpose of spreading their own sickening extreme Leftist messages!

I watched this show once, and kept coming back for more.  But now that I've seen a good two or three episodes, I am just sick of it.  Seriously, Travel Channel.  What the hell.

F**k.
[info]thekellyfox
My birthday is in five days.

FUCK.

I fucking hate this time of year. Tons of days for celebration, none of which I am able to celebrate.

Fuck my life.
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A Letter to Santa
[info]thekellyfox
Maybe Santa checks LiveJournal. ;)


Dear Santa,

My childhood years are long gone, and it was long ago that my parents solemnly told me that you do not exist. And yet, even now as an adult, the thought strikes me, dear Santa, that otherwise "adult" and "sane" people have believed in stranger things than yourself. And perhaps it is more to the concept which I write; the concept, that is, of a benevolent figure who rewards those who are good and fills the eagerly-waiting stockings of the evil with only coal, who gives out these rewards each year predictably, unseen, omnipresent - to be discovered upon sunrise. Perhaps it is the concept of a sort of kind, truly just entity, to which I am addressing this letter. But be that as it may, I shall simply continue to call you, Santa.

Santa, I have been the best I could be, this year. I have lashed out a couple of times, and I have even broken someone's heart once or twice though I tried not to. I have done things I am not proud of. But I hope that you will see my intentions are pure and my efforts strong; I do not wish to cause harm to anyone, despite some feelings of rage that may strike me in light of near-unforgivable abuse committed against me. I want to do what is right, believe what is right...and I think that overall, this year, I have accomplished this.

I have a list for you, this Christmas. It is very short, but it is also very large. There are many things I want or even probably need that I could list...but I have narrowed it down carefully to these simple things. And I hope that you will consider granting me them, for these are the things I need so very desperately.

This year, I would like to be granted the gift of hope. Not simply a fleeting glimmer or spark, but a steadfast sort of hope which I can hold on to in the dark days which I am sure are to come. I have not had this for a very long time. And I hope you will consider granting me this gift. It may very well save my life.

I would also like, this year, to have my basic needs for money met. I am very tired, Santa, of living in fear of losing the roof over my head, losing the few things I have and hold dear such as my cat Juno who loves me so kindly and unconditionally. I am wrestling with very serious matters, and the stress of this constant danger of losing the few things I have is a burden I need lifted so very much. I am glad that I have the money I do, because without it I would surely be on the streets; but as much as I hate to say it, it is not enough. I don't ask to be rich, though of course we all have our fantasies of endless money - I just need to be able to provide for myself and my cat adequately, and have the stress eased of my financial Hell. My bank account will be taxed beyond its limits again this month, and I can barely take it, with all the other things piled on me.

My third and final wish, Santa, is a wish that I am a little ashamed to ask for, as some people have told me it is a stupid thing to want. But if you can find it in your jolly heart, I would like to be given the gift of love this Christmas. I know I have a boyfriend, but he is far, far away and I can't even hold him in my arms or kiss him. And I need it, so much, to be held; it is something I don't give out to just anyone, and refuse to ask of anyone, despite the burning need for it that seems to be rotting my core. I hold my doubts that you can even grant me such a gift; but I will ask for it nonetheless.

In closing, I may not be able to afford cookies for you this year, but I will do what I can. I realize parents eat the cookies that are left out every Christmas Eve by their children, and it is a silly little thing; but if only for the sake of tradition and in light of recent events (you should know what I am talking about), I will try to do something.

Thank you. And Merry Christmas.

- Kelly

My own comic strip - well...kind of.
[info]thekellyfox
Okay, so I just found this site called stripgenerator.com - and decided to try it out. I had a list of time-wasting sites, saving it for a rainy (or boring, as the case may be) day such as today. I suggest the site, if you feel like killing your time with a LOL or two. Gonna link the article I got it from, too, which I myself will be reading further soon. :)

Linkage below!


http://www.pcworld.com/article/169112/best_web_sites_to_waste_time_on.html

My Strip: http://stripgenerator.com/strip/326916/

Furries Exposed - An Insider's Rant
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I LOL'd
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Eggs!
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Poll #1385763 Eggs
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 2

Eggs...

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are delicious!
0 (0.0%)

came before chickens.
0 (0.0%)

look best on your house or car!
1 (50.0%)

Wat. o_o
1 (50.0%)

Other (please specify)
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My oldest favorite song...
[info]thekellyfox
I heard this song as a little girl, and I will never forget it.  In a strange way, it encouraged me to dream amid a life filled with turmoil - it gave me peace, serenity almost, a smile amid the hurricane of life.  And now for some reason, as I hear it today for the first time in years, tears start to well up.  I am such an emotional, sentimental chick...it's ridiculous.

So, I'm sharing with you guys one of my all-time favorite songs.  No techno, no metal - just a classic, soft tune...

www.youtube.com/watch

PS - Ignore the images. Just listen to the music, y'all.


Why have I not seen this before?
[info]thekellyfox
I simply HAVE to share this.  If you don't like Daft Punk, you can always check out BandyToaster's other videos.  I know of at least four so far...  Anyway, without further ado - check out this video!  She dances amazingly, and she's so cute!

Behold! - Groovy Dancing Girl.

www.youtube.com/watch


Something that cheered me up...
[info]thekellyfox
This commercial just makes me smile.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P3kw7cRz4Ek

Llamas eating Starburst.  What can be any better?

Cosmic Connect (poem)
[info]thekellyfox
Inspired by watching the first two episodes of Dragon Ball Z (STFU, it was my first time seeing it!!), talking with my man, and listening to "Believe" by Staind which always reminds me of him...  Combine my love for him with the epic proportions of DBZ and the heavy feel of Staind, put it into poetic action...and this is what you get!  Somehow it turned out just perfect, in my opinion.  Something about the feel of it...it's perfect for me, I love it sooo much, and I don't care whether anyone else loves it this much, it is my Preciousss. *pets it*

Without further ado, here is the poem.

Cosmic Connect

I can sense the pain
Dripping from your very skin
Like sweat from the strain
Like blood from the wounds

I can feel the sin and purity
Ripping your soul apart
Holding it together
You are an angel, you are a demon
You are greater
You are better
Full of power
Power of the soul

And as the unmistakable scent
Of pain and power and lust and rage
Of pure unbridled ability to love
Fills my senses...
My soul begins to hum
The connection has been made
Astronomical and soulful and cosmic
The connection
Bridging the gap to make you and me
Into the ever powerful, WE

For I am like you
Full of the same essence
The same life force that drives my body
All the power of a dying sun
All the power of a being
Nearly unearthly
In its awareness of self and of all that exists
Its limitlessness,
Wrapped in the frail cloak of humanity
And struggling relentlessly
Like a lunatic in a straight jacket

Our souls have reached out
With unseen tendrils of pure life
And now they touch, they dance
And a single thought,
A single note, a chord, a tune
Begins to ring out
Framed best by a single word:
Love

And we speak this word,
With these human lips we have
We breathe it into the night air
The other cannot hear
But oh, we can - we know
We know that we are trapped now
By this thought and song and word
This, "Love"
And there is no turning back now
Never


No...
There is no turning back,
My love.

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Compulsive Poetry
[info]thekellyfox
I feel like this chick.



Except it should go like this:

I am a poet.
My only purpose is to write and create.
Please kill me.

(image taken from http://vaporotem.deviantart.com/ and totally does not belong to me whatsoever)


Just for InkyKitty! (A Birthday Poem)
[info]thekellyfox
Happy, happy birthday, from KellyFox to you!
I wish it was my birthday, so I could get gifts too!
Happy, happy birthday, don't let life get you down
Today is a day just for you, so don't you even frown!

Happy happy birthday, this poem's really bad
Oh well, consider it a wish for good times to be had!
Happy happy birthday, I hope you smile today,
And that you don't forget you're special in so many ways!


I ran out of creative juices right about then, but uh...there you go, Inkykitty!!  Hope you enjoy!

Baby Got Tail (drawing)
[info]thekellyfox
I'm so excited!!  I got the brilliant idea to plug in my old-ish USB tablet thingy into my laptop, to see if I could download drivers for it...and not only did it work, but I didn't have to download anything!  Windows just said "Hey, lookit that - I can find drivers for that.  Want me to?"  And I said "Sure!"  And it was like "Yes'm".  And I was like, "Omigawd!"

...okay, so that little snippet of fake dialogue was...slightly annoying, but you get the point!

So!  To celebrate my newly-working-again tablet, I have begun practicing with it once more!  And I actually turned out something I like!  Check it out!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2064731

Thoughts on Sociology
[info]thekellyfox
I just finished studying a whole ton of information in a short time.  I've memorized a fair amount, but to actually get it ingrained might be a little bit of work.  Tomorrow I hope to study in two big chunks, at least - one for review, and another for progression to the third of four sections.  The fourth section will be easy - only 18 "flash cards" for me to memorize.

But something that kept hitting me as I was studying is this: Sociology can be freaking depressing!  For instance, I think it was Emile Durkheim who came up with the four types of suicide?  Four types of suicide?  You've got to be kidding me.  But whatever.  Oh, and then there's Marx and his theories about the proletariat and the ... don't ask me to spell the other one, please, not right now.  Basically, the message seems to be that societies evolve to become grand and majorly f***ed up in their government systems and social...*brain dies mid sentence*.

Oh, also?  I have come to the conclusion that education is the most biased and narrow-minded thing ever.  You learn what they want you to learn, you answer the way they want you to answer, and if you play like a good little teacher's pet, you get a pat on the head and an A+.  Really, if we are to progress, don't we need people who can buck the system a little?  I wager some of the most intelligent people you will ever meet may have failed utterly in the face of our educational system today...

Also, just so you know - Pearl Jam's "Do The Evolution" is a great song to listen to while studying sociology.  Check out the lyrics: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/pearljam/dotheevolution.html  Fits, doesn't it?

And lastly.  My brain is utterly fried tonight.  If this entry has ridiculous phrases that don't make sense, or misspellings or anything like that...just get over it.  I'm going to chill out and enjoy myself as celebration for getting over halfway done with my CLEP exam stuff.  Woo!!

Reason #728 That I Am Going to Hell
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So a lot of things happened tonight.  And I just had to write them all down.

First, I get a phone call from an acquaintance off the MUCK. He says he's at the hotel where Furry Fiesta is being held, and asked if I wanted to go meet him and some of his friends for dinner there at the hotel.  For some reason, I say yes.  Probably because I'm starved for real-life human interaction.

Driving for the first time in my new car - in and of itself a stunning sort of thing for me - I soon find myself at the Crowne Plaza Hotel in Addison...smack dab in the middle of a furry convention, the first I would have ever seen.  I was almost shaking with nervousness.  I got out of my car and the first thing I saw was a handful of people walking into the hotel, one or two wearing tails and ears.  I shook my head.  What was I doing?

I walked inside and soon found a seat at the hotel's dining spot...and to my surprise and perhaps dismay, I realized I was the only female in a group of about seven people.  One of them took one look at me and immediately got a gleam in his eye...I'm thinking, oh no.

After a very tiny dinner, thanks to my nervous stomach, I strolled with the group to "the game room" - a room with three videogame systems hooked up, and several strange games strewn around that I had never heard of.  We played two of these strange games...or, well, some of the group played while I and mister gleamy-eyes watched and cracked jokes.  That gleam was growing by the minute, and it took a very short time for him to begin making innuendo jokes at me and basically hit on me.  My acquaintance joined the hitting-on, too.

Somehow, though...regardless of the fact that I knew what these two wanted, I joined them in their hotel room afterwards.  They were quick to begin pouring affections over me, trying their damndest to get me out of my clothes...but with each advance I just moved away and half-seriously giggled, "Hey!"

Before I knew it, the room was full of raging testosterone.  Four men, all revved up for a night of excitement, and little old me.  Well, two of them were in and out for a while.  Two of them - mister gleamy-eyes and my friend - were busy cuddling, petting, and making subtle attempts at getting in my pants.  Finally everyone was there, and they were all making comments, slipping in hints that made it clear what they wanted.  And me?  I just giggled along and joked with them...and then did absolutely nothing.

Four out of five men, ready to pounce me.  (The fifth was too shy...I kind of feel bad for him.)  I never thought in all my life I'd end up in that kind of a situation.  I guess I couldn't pass it up.  The "crazy" in me just wanted to steal some affection and then run with it.  And that's exactly what I did.  I left all four (the fifth one fell asleep) to their sexual frustrations, and grinned to myself the entire drive home.

It's official.
I am going to hell.


Lonely Soul, To You (poem)
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I'm not sure why I wrote this.  In fact, it puzzles me.  I had this crazy image in my mind of some stranger out there reading this...Wasn't written for anyone I know.  I'm a little weird, I know.  But anyway!  Enjoy my latest work!

Lonely Soul, To You

This is for the lonely soul
Sitting by the fire tonight
Playing music to soothe the pain
This is for you
Yes, that's right
You

I am writing to you, lonely soul
To tell you there is hope
To tell you you are not alone
To hold your hand
To help you cope

There is something you should know, lonely soul
That you are never truly alone
And though it may not ease the pain
You have my love

Right now, tonight
You have the love of a lonely poet
A poet who can't seem to rhyme today
A poet who wishes someone would say
These very words to her
Someone who has nothing but love
To offer the world

This is for you, so this night you can say
You are no longer a lonely soul
You are a man, a woman
Who is loved
Because, my dear -
May I call you my dear? -
I have love to offer you
I have love that is true
This is my love poem to you

Let me sit here with you
On this your sad and lonely night
Let us commune by this your crackling fire
Or listen together to the music
You so love to hear
And since you share with me this time
I will share with you a secret...

Did you know,
Former lonely soul,
And lover of mine for tonight
Did you know that I was once very alone?
Did you know that I would let all my life go to waste
Just for one taste
Just for one moment spent in daydream
In which a faceless lover became real to me?

I am yours tonight, my dear
So clutch me close in your arms
And cry your eyes out
Or smile, even laugh aloud
Share with me your secrets
I promise you I won't tell
But whatever you do
Don't you dare feel alone
I would feel insulted, after all!
For I am with you tonight
In a way you cannot imagine...

This is for you
For you,
That's right -
YOU!
And I want you to know...
I love you

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Robotnik is the man!
[info]thekellyfox


Okay.  Everyone knows I'm a huge fan not only of Sonic the Hedgehog, but of his one true enemy, Robotnik.  (And Snively, but we won't go there...today.)  You don't have to know me long to know that I adore his evilness, his awesomeness, his general badassery.  The "SatAM", or Saturday Morning cartoon, version of Robotnik was always particularly menacing to me as a kid.  Rarely did he have any stupid moments...he always kept his composure, always kept his air of "I am Lord of Evil, bow unto me!"  And of course, that series is where we find Snively, voiced by the one and only Charlie Adler, who did the job all too well.

Anyway!  Back on track.  So...being a huge fan, I went on one of my YouTube explorations not long ago, and I discovered pure gold!  Well, in my opinion anyway.

For anyone at all who is a Sonic fan - I'm looking at you, Kithop, if you ever look at my stuff ;) - you simply MUST go on a similar exploration as I did.  Look up remixes of various videogame themes (such as for Robotnik, who is awesome and has an awesome lackey) - you will find a lot of crap, but with effort, you'll also find nuggets like the links I will provide below!  They are both remixes of the Robotnik Theme from Sonic the Hedgehog 3...my absolute favorite Robotnik theme.  I used to adore that theme as a kid.  I would even sing it for long periods of time!  So you can imagine my delight when I found these.

First off, the one I've been deafening myself with while writing this.  I can never seem to play it loud enough to satisfy my cravings for Robotnik Theme awesomeness!  It isn't the best quality, but that's okay with me!  All it needs, really, is some brushing up and a little more bass.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xh0f-c_KZns&fmt=18

And if you desire a much better quality, and much less electronic remix?  I'll point you to one that my ex pointed me to - he loves this style of music, and I must say...good choice!  The evil laugh makes me grin from ear to ear!  And the guitars - dear god, the guitars!  So deliciously metal.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W05rhqJ0IEw&feature=related

My two favorite categories of music (techno and metal), both remixes of my favorite theme as a kid?!  I'm in love!

PS - Here is the original theme, from the videogame itself!  For comparison. ;)  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hqE_mjo9yA4


Without Music (poem)
[info]thekellyfox
Written while listening to a couple of songs very loudly.  Enjoy!



Without Music

Send the music soaring right through my soul
Waves of vibrations in sweet melody, sweet harmony
Sing to me the music of the universe
The song of the very heavens and earth
Soul upon soul upon soul in unified vibration

I could never live without music
Bass and tenor and alto and soprano
Sing, sing, sing to me again!
Never let it die, never let it fade away

No,
I could never live without music
The pounding of the drums, the bass
In rhythm, oh, godlike rhythm,
Carrying and cradling my soul to and fro
Fast and furious
Slow and gradual

If spirits were to make love
They would make love in the form of song
A single note, another, another
Like the caress of gentle fingers
Rising chords and intensity
Like the greatest foreplay imaginable
A peak and a slow winding down again
To a single note, a single chord again

No,
I could never live without music...
 
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Happy Lurve Day
[info]thekellyfox

For those of you who have lovers and are happy - Good for you.  Do me a huge favor and don't show your affection in public.
For those of you who are ronery and sadry arone - Go find someone to lurve on.  Seriously.
For those of you who are alone and happy about it - What the hell is wrong with you?!
For those of us with mad crushes -  Good luck!
And to all of the above -  Happy Lurve Day. <3


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